Without being said, I did not realize it until its too late. Well realizations come when you suddenly felt the need that some part of you is missing, or there is something that you shouldn't did.
Do I regret it? Question keep bothering me. Part of me says YES, and the other half says No. Its a yes, because for every dull moment I had, my mind tells me "I told you so, but all you have to do now is to think of ways how we could be able to get away from this mess you did, so you won't feel this way again". Well there are days I feel homesick and I just want to go home the soonest I can. I feel that I can't wait for six months to be a regular employee.
The other half says "No, I don't regret it". Yeah, its a fake answer, we usually say it so we won't say that we were wrong with the decision we made. We tell lies, well maybe part of it are true and lets give it the benefit of doubt.
Looking at the bright side, the "No I don't regret it decision", also give me positive response in life. I met new companions, experience things out of my comfort zone, able to see with my bare eyes the real picture of poverty, and I also experience the kind of living when you are just by yourself, And I may say "It's hard that I told myself I don't want to get back at this kind of life again".
I am awake, undecided and willing to take risks. I hope with my next steps I would be able to get what I really wanted.
You, What is your next BIG STEP?
Written at 4478 V. Francisco St. 3rd floor, Sta.Mesa, Manila. around 12:00 NN on March 1, 2015.
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