An Open Letter to my Team Buddies!

An Open Letter to my Team Buddies!

Hi Team, its been a while since I enter the production floor and be part of your team. You've been wondering, why all of a sudden I ended up to have this decision. Well, don't get me wrong. I do love the months, days, hours, minutes, and every bit of a second of my stay here. And even though its a generic thing that we often heard it, I may say that, its been a hard decision for me.

Of course I've been thinking about this a hundred times already. And to be honest, because I wanna be transparent with you (spiel I got from Red), every single day that I come to work and being asked  if I am to stay or not, I have this idea that, Yes I do love to stay because I really do enjoy it here. But, whenever I am at home, the other part of me wanted to go HOME already. 

How long do I experience this concern (spiel from Medz), it was during the time that I am about to hit Abay. So, ever since I've been striving hard to escalate my stay at higher fix agency or back office department (spiel from Rz and Cy), in which I mean my patience is being tested. I also run some health check, which is nothing to do with this article tho', it's kinda catchy anyway and I just recently adapt this spiel this week from Jhiza.

Even though you are not asking, This is actually my second official work. Although I haven't thought of entering this kind of industry before, yet I still did. No regrets at all. 

Looking at the bright side, hopefully  I am able to share or even add something with the group. 

Yes, I do speak less, but I do listen carefully, and sorry if I haven't share my funny side with you. 
And I certainly hope I cover everything for you (spiel from K. Joey) to make this open letter somehow let you know the other side of me.

But for the record I am not being too emotional or something as I wrote this (oh wait I know what's at the back of your mind). 

Anyway, I am an Introvert. I'm only good at this, writing my thoughts. Most of the time I do have a lot of idea. Well, my mind can think a lot, but my mouth can't speak enough. But if were too close, BEWARE! 

Technically speaking I am resigning, but logically, I am just ending my journey at this industry. 
Thank you for everything.
T'was an honor to be part of this Team and I will forever cherish this adventure. 
Through laughter & tears, doubt & fear (auto in & release), I'm going to keep it at my Pandora's box.

I always wanted to mingle with your group, hang-out and have some fun, for I am one crazy fella' too.
Excited to have my next adventure with all of you (Sama ako kahit saan), I am always one text away. 
So, See you, when I see you.

Addtl note: Even though I did not include your name here, it doesn't mean that I haven't learn anything from you. (just explaining, or would you like me to explain at the precint?) haha.

By the way, if you do have time, please do visit my website for more SHO (get to know me more)
http://rahjoys.blogspot.com/?m=1

Written at 3rd floor  V. Francisco St. Sta. Mesa, Manila. Around 9:00PM, 
Now Playing: A song on a Broken String by Nicole Laurel Asensio (Philpop 2014)
June 21, 2015. Father's day. Let thy Glory be to God


Alright then, you do all
Stay Awesome!

Sarah, now signing off.

ssapungan/os

A Lifeless Living

This past few days I feel like I'm living like a zombie. 

I live but I seem to be lifeless. 

I picture life everyday with what if's. 

What's the purpose? What I am worth for? Do I live? 

When everything seems to be a big question to me, 

I keep on thinking, searching for an answer, 

looking for a possible solution, solution that could lead for a better decision. 

It's a Yes, You Only Live Once, I mean us, so better live your/our life to fullest. 

But I may say, I think it is much better to live our life with/for a purpose.

Purpose? Have you ever ask yourself, what is your purpose of living? 

To whom you live for?

Me:

Thinking? nah' screw it.

Working, really huh!

Living, now that is something.

Written at RRCG Bus going to Eton Cyberpod

Corinthian Bldg. March 5, 2015 around 9:30PM

My Next Big Step

Before you decide you have to think twice and consider a LOT of factors.

Without being said, I did not realize it until its too late. Well realizations come when you suddenly felt the need that some part of you is missing, or there is something that you shouldn't did. 

Do I regret it? Question keep bothering me. Part of me says YES, and the other half says No. Its a yes, because for every dull moment I had, my mind tells me "I told you so, but all you have to do now is to think of ways how we could be able to get away from this mess you did, so you won't feel this way again". Well there are days I feel homesick and I just want to go home the soonest I can. I feel that I can't wait for six months to be a regular employee. 

The other half says "No, I don't regret it". Yeah, its a fake answer, we usually say it so we won't say that we were wrong with the decision we made. We tell lies, well maybe part of it are true and lets give it the benefit of doubt.

Looking at the bright side, the "No I don't regret it decision", also give me positive response in life. I met new companions, experience things out of my comfort zone, able to see with my bare eyes the real picture of poverty, and I also experience the kind of living when you are just by yourself, And I may say "It's hard that I told myself I don't want to get back at this kind of life again".

I am awake, undecided and willing to take risks. I hope with my next steps I would be able to get what I really wanted.

You, What is your next BIG STEP?

Written at 4478 V. Francisco St. 3rd floor, Sta.Mesa, Manila. around 12:00 NN on March 1, 2015.

One kind of a day